Friday, January 28, 2011

slash tires or hit knees

I don't how it is with other wives, but I am pretty protective of my husband! I my mind I am the only one that can give him a hard time about something no one else has the right to, which is a flaw of mine! I can probably say that is the case in many marriages. As a ministers wife it is hard to hear negative things said about my husband or things he is doing in his ministry.

When he comes home from work and just looks like he came in from a battle I feel like I am ready to break out some war paint and slash some tires. But as Christ is working on me and my heart I have to make the right decision to hit my knees and pray for him and the situation that knocked him in the knee caps. IT IS HARD TO DO.

Most of you know you do this and if you say "oh goodness I don't" your lying! But when someone hurts your family, you have this full length movie played out in your head of you pulling a Rambo on someone. Us in the south would love to just slap someone and say "bless you heart" and just gracefully walk away. Oh my, I have had some Oscar winning performances in my mind when my husband comes home and tells me about his day. Just like everyone else that is trying to live a life of Christ, has to love the unlovable and the people that hurt the ones we love. I have to pray a constant prayer of " Dear sweet Lord, how in the world do you love them and please give me your eyes to see them the way you see them.

I don't come to worship every Sunday with a smile on face like I just came from skipping in a field picking flowers or to be VERY honest there are times I don't want to see people. I have to tell myself what my mother told me when I was going though a hard time in high school. " You don't go to church for those people, you go to give praise to God" I will always remember that and remind myself that.

A note to those who may not think about this but my husband and so many other ministers are human, have wives that could spit some serious nails and have a heart for God that wants to please. So when they get trampled so do their wives. We must all speak in love... as Christ speaks to us in love.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

The first!

Hello all!

Well here we go lets see if I can keep this up. When my husband and I talk about our day and some days we always say we should write our stories down because if we told them down the line no one would believe us! So here I am revealing the unknown life of a ministers wife.

I am not your typical ministers wife I guess. I look nothing like the "church lady" from SNL and I don't walk around in SAS shoes!! I am not the most outgoing of people and if some people are surprised by this you now know I pray hard about it and God is working on me! I don't care for fluffy christian music... sorry Sandy Patty I don't have you on our IPod! I love skinny jeans and shopping at Forever21 (and I am not 21). I love love wearing my ripped jean to Sunday morning worship but I would love even more if I wore my gym shorts, too! I am bad at making casserole dishes and thats like minister wife 101 and I failed that bad. I really stink at memorizing Bible verses and to be very honest, finding time to read the Bible! I am a real person. I don't have any special DNA in me that makes me different from anyone else. I struggle with a lot of stuff others struggle with, it being, cussing, getting a temper when my 2 year old throws something sharp at me, gossip and selfishness!

I hope this blog will make you see the life of a ministers wife that no one sees! I hope this will help you see wifes of this lifes journey as real people and not some super hero or Bible bowl pro. Because I am not either of those. I am a person that is trying hard to seek God out in all things and to love and live as Jesus does!!!